Thursday 28 July 2011

A Little Less Brûlée, Please?

A blog. What does that encompass? Thus far I have used mine for recipes, photos, humourous-ness, etc.

I know another common use is as a kind of e-diary or journal, in other words a place where people decide to let out whatever's on their mind or heart. Hmm...

Tonight the clocks go ahead, and the hour of 12 a.m. on this 13th of March did not exist. Well, at least not in measurement's sense. Yet I sit here at 3 a.m. wishing I had not lost that hour and wishing I could have a decent night's sleep once in a while. The late nights and early rises, despite the gross quantities of caffeine consumption, still leaves me haggard towards a day's end, and I get tired, and sleep doesn't come, not without a lack of trying.

Thusly, I am here at 3 a.m. typing my thoughts into a window on a computer screen.

"I see the moon and the moon sees me." I see the world, but does the world see me? A blip in humanity? No, of course not, as less than 1% of us (humans), maybe even 0.001%, are ever remembered for any length of time post-death. Knowing that, and knowing that since I'm probably not in that 0.001% (nor do I want to be as I don't care for fame or acknowledge, but that's a tirade/explanation for another day) I'll strive for happiness.

Happiness...

As I rack up considerable debt and watch my life clock tick away, I wonder what would make me a little happier. Currently: I am at a university, I am student of the maths and sciences, a student who was trying to force himself to be happy within those fields (basically because they pay off in the end *ca-ching*). But I had the realization that, my life will not be happy doing that sort of thing, and my interests within the sciences were just that: interests, not things I was passionate about. Thusly my goal is, right now, to finish university, and do something that I truly love and enjoy doing: cooking, i.e. the culinary arts, and in the very near future, I intend to apply to the Culinary Institute of Canada, for 2012, and work for the interim, and hope for acceptance.

So, blogosphere, good night and good morning.